Give Me Your Song
Today I was in prayer pouring out my heart and I found myself wrestling with the question of why I feel out of place sometimes in choir. I love it don't get me wrong. I would prefer to be up there and never to leave because of the closeness with God and the anointing over the people around me. This being said, we all get into our own heads sometimes. Me especially. I find myself angered or hurt over what? I don’t know. I mean I know but it's pretty stupid things. There are times I wonder if I'm on American Idol auditions and I'm that so you think you can sing reel where everyone is like, “awwww” but at least she is trying.
Now come on I know I'm not the only one who has questioned where they are and been angry. But at this stage I know for a fact even as mad or hurt my feelings get I know I'm up there for God. I know I'm loud and I can overpower a song. I get that but sometimes I just lose myself and I am no longer in the realm of flesh. And let's be honest isn't that where we all want to be spiritually? I don't say all this because I'm looking for sympathy because I don't need it. I'm just throwing out what God put on my heart. I am sure I'm not the only one who has felt out of place and the first place to break that chain of thinking is to throw light on it and let God move.
I mostly just want to say thank you to the people who are there for me and love music just as much as I do. To worship with abandonment of flesh to worship with all your soul.
Give me your heart, give me your song, sing it with all your might, come to the fountain and you can be satisfied. There is a peace there is a love you can get lost inside, come to the fountain and let me hear you Testify